Only Hard Mode Available.
I’m tired to feel this way, to be so scared about life. I’m so tired to be hopeful that someday I might find a way out of my own fears. I’m tired to ignore the fact I’m throwing my dreams away, and tired to lie to myself that I’m not doing it. I know life is a huge test of goodwill and strength and there’s no easy or beginners level to start. Everything is hard, and I know that if I keep lying to the only person that I can count on right now, I’m finished. I need to trust in my guts more. I know that I want this and I know I’m not giving up yet. I’m confused with all this things life throw in my lap out of the blue, and I don’t know how to deal with them just because I never had them before, but I know that I’ll figure out a way to set all these things in the right place. I know that this is the big time on my life, now I have to make a choice who will define somehow my future. I have huge difficulties to make choices but this one I got the right pick. I’ve already picked. That’s why I guess I feel so wierd about it, ever choice has it losses, and mine I lose a bunch, cause life only has hard mode level to play.